cool

just wrote a cool sorting function fo sorting vectors in java..so whats so cool abt it ..its justr that i thought on what to ioptimize no. of swaps or number of comparison..since dealing with vectors i was actully setting memory to diff values so i figured its the swaps that need to optimize...
(didnt go for merge etc sort coz the avg list is of size 3-4)
chalo i guess most of the coding is done ..now the thing is to make it run..but before that aaram karungi..

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a cool t shirt design:
in frnt written ..look on the other side for an infinite loop
in back written ..look on the other side for an infinite loop
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getting bored

man i am really not feeling like wrking today..had loads of chivda and orange candy that i got from home and also got a slam book... jaane ke din paas aa rahein hai...
had a chat with swarna ...was nice..also had my 1 hr afternoon siesta..
still not beingf able to conc. on wrk.
one of those days...will write just 1 function and then will go back to hostel.

some blogs

http://anshuhere.rediffblogs.com/
this is anshu's blog and the link is added here coz we share the same wing, same lab, same guide , same concerns of ants on our bottle and same sentiments about our work ..
so though i am not very regular this blog will certainly fill in about my daily bytes :)

back from holidays!!!!

had one lovely week at home!!! wow the bliss of not doing anything and lying in frnt of the TV..the bliss of eating home cooked food .... the bliss of having my parents around to take care of all the things ...wow all this was so great .......
..asim was theretoo though he came late..i prepared my now famous fruit cream :) ...no matter what when the day comes to leave and i am in the train, after the train starts moving the first 10 mins are so horrible and this time was one of the few times i cried :''(..ofcourse the nexct moment i took up a paper and started plannig about my thesis ..
have a list of pple to mail to - abhijit toley, rohit kumar, ali ....but am getting so lazy..
i realized the wrth of every day spent here ..
one day here = one day not spent at home
so gotto extract the max out of everyday..
found a bug in my thesis algo that will constraint the applicability of my software to only linear time algos -as i said on realizing it the parrots of my hands flew :).


have started morning walks with cherry ..she is amazing.. unfailingly every morning at 6.30 she comes to wake me up and we go out.. this morning walk has improved my schedule greatly too.(also my appetite..i wont e surprised if i come out fatter from this exercise :)) )
saurabh shifting to his new home with bar and puma...he gets lotsa wrk these days. i am glad that he has pushed up his startup thing a bit ..its not his start up but any startup or anything of his own that i want him to do and not for the financial prospects (alone:) ) but also coz i know eventually his own wrk, sweat company will make him happy and teach him a lot about how to accompolish a lot of things that he wants to.

bad bad day ..no donut today :(

List of bad things happened:
- I am going home and sunday one of our family friends is coming who is dad's pet and we all HATE him. He is a nice guy if I think about it once but he is very imposing kinda guy.[this is not as close as bad news if you see the second one)
- SKA told me that I will have to stay here till 15th July while rest of the folks wil lleave on 31st may - b**** f*** :P
- Network not working on Solaris machines so I couldnt really wrk on my thesis :(
- Google guys planned and gave a date to interview me and that turned out to be the day I am on the train ...so I had to call off their plan.
- He forgot his mobile at home .. so hardly any phone calls

good thing is that had a nice chat at night with my bestest friend and after a long time I was feeling that i had a conversation (two way) ..felt very good talking and laughing together.

asim ka trying for MS ..i guess he will have to come and go directly to pune for it.
Hope this google guys dont get pissed off by me and things wrk out fine.
abhi listening to some good songs - (something stupid,u fillup my senses (annies song) and akele hai from qsqt)

talk with toofan

had a telephonic conversation with bijal mehta ..the work and all seemed promising ..he has almost agreed to have me on board however i need to meet him so that i could take a more informed decision. i really care a damn about the risk involved in the startup ..i guess have become a bit too confident...however i just dont want to get into a place which i wudnt like eventually. hence the risk on my part is to make sure of this aspect that i like
- wrk
- team
- boss
i hope the decisions i take on these are the right ones.

cards and gifts

mummy papa sent a beautiful card and a pen too :)... i wore their navy blue beutiful dress..
got cards and gift ..cherry came early 13th morning from delhi got me a beautiful card and a photoframe..
asim sent me the most amazing card ...i really loved every word of it ..
am yet to mail to most of the people who wished me...
saubhy ne kuch nahee bheja :(

birthday

Hi guys,
I just wanted to thank you all for the wonderful day I had yesterday and the day before. All that fun and shopping and frolic would not have been the same if I hadnot felt the warmth of friendship and togetherness that I felt. Though most things are more understood than said but since I am good in the latter and most of us not good in the former :) I feel that I must say that not even for a second I missed being at home because it was so much fun and so much warm.
Al lmy b'days have been during exam and though there have been parties, the actual birthday have had everyone, me included, biting nails and preparing for exams,
Thank you each one for being a part of the memory that I will remember for a long time. Thanks madaan for actually helping me out with shopping with all specific details (sorry if you missed your puja :( ) , jaya for just being there , anshu for coming though someone had just returned from bangalore, rupesh for the unique keyboard and amazing ability to listen to all 7 of us while buying clothes , rohan for sleeping in the tempo the way back, niraj for hitting me like a masterji (i am thankful coz you have no idea about my revenge for which now no justification would be required).
Thanks all for the excercise that i had on 11th night running round and round and teaching me strategies (anshu's throwing water, rupesh an madaan's hiding in the bathroom, niraj's staying put in the stairs knowing that I couldnt be there as it was slippery, rohan for his dhokadhari while getting me inside sec lab and setting me up for anshu grrr, jaya not being able to anger me inspite of putting the maximum cake ) and for the cream that has done wonders to my skin :)).
Jokes apart, I really mean that this has been so wonderful that I want to have my every b'day like this and I really hope that after these 2 months (for some people 3, for some 4 months) we meet as frequently as possible and keep this friendship intact. Nahee to apne Yahoo! waalon ka chat software hai na ...
lots of love,
Arati

b'day eve

today is march 11th and b'day eve..already got a mail from mtech2003 to have celebrations at 12 at night in the depmnt...
was thinking a lot about what to wear...the new dress that mom got for me was for tomorrow so what to wear today ...tried out lot of things like the skirt but had no matching top..then the top but had no matching trousers then finally settled for the parrot green dress that mom had bought for me when she was blinded (literally) with lots of love and affection) for me.. had exactly worn it once for 2 hours till now..thought of wearing it today - imagine it will come on my cake cutting photographs and the memory will stay with me for years but i guess i just wanted to wear it today :). No comments from people except a few surprised smiles.. koi bolne ki himmat to kare ..
miss my family a lot today and miss someone too ...

tooofaaaaaan .......

Got a mail for the startup from bijal mehta..it was sheer luck coz i saw amit mailing a bunch of pple with my name not in the "To list".... so i asked him to mail me about his company details.. needless to say i am a lot excited about it but i just want to go slow and be sure ..afterall it will be MS that I will be leaving for it ..however onething is for sure that after a long time some offer has got me excited so much..
i almost managed to talk niraj and anshu into joining it as well...they hadnt even mailed him as yet ..it will be fun to wrk with the team constituting of these pple...
lets see if i wrk in toofan and my dad would completely giveup on us :))
hope this wrks out (for not just now) but also for a long time to come...
amen...

our future

yest. night read the newpaper and the last article i read was about a girl commiting suicide by jumping in frnt of the train ..she was some 9th or 11th std student nad committed suicide coz she cudnt take the pressure of studies..just a few days ago a guy from DPS, delhi of 9th student committed suicide coz he cudnt take the exam pressure..
and this tohught is coming back to me so often sice so many days ... what worries me is that if th population of india increases at this rate the pressure on students will mount so much that such incidents will become so common ..
and the sad part is that all hese happens for reasons that can easily be controlled.. if the mentality is set right ..if the pressure on the students is eased...if pple realize that success is independent of education ...

google

was just searching google to know what all services it provided ..thought of doing google search and one of the results on the first page was google-watch.org - site made by a bunch of google haters ...i wonder if google knows that link to this site is coming on the top..
Though the site has multiple reasons (Each in a diff link) to hate google but i guess the underlying reason is that they are afraid that google will be the all powerful guy who would be having all the information right from what clothes you are wearing to your job and other details ..and it can potentially be misused..
i feel that google till now has this immaculate reputation that is actaully getting it along and the day google does somethin to mar this reputation, the whole company will go down the drain ...and thus for its own good i guess it wouldnot indulge in doing something evil...ofcourse it would use this to maximize its profit in terms of advertisements ..it will monopolize in this way (i can see it growing and capturing the web world already) ..but well common man would not be realyl affected by it...
i am getting too senti about google i guess :) ..need abreak

its raining ...

Wednesday..the day where TA work becomes the all consuming day of the work. The owrst part is though I was the part of design team, i was askked to write the documentation for the whole configuration file ..that was quite a pain considering i had to do it today as had lost my time on landmark trips for yahoo..
anyways the document was submitted with 2-3 typos and grammatical mistakes which was sadly enough to putoff my ta guide...to think of it i have written so many docs with perfection here and i know some where not even read ..like the grid comparison - well researched one- design doc - really thought out one but this one wasw the one i wrote thinknig that noone will give a second look and was intensely reviewed...
i was good ..i guess i was slacking a bit on my principle of "your work define you" ..good reality checkpoint it was...
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anyways did some rethink on thesis frnt ...made my algo both SI and RI, i could have improved on the design had i not been restrained by Sun Grid Engine semantics ..tish tosh ..how i wish i was not limited by that ..mine algo would have been the best coz it would have resulted in the maximum thruput! but well anyways ..right now its the best thruput by current papers and it works with minimum communication between machines...
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i realize my blog is unreadable for many people as it contains only those things that i understand (like my documents :P) but what the heck! its my blog :)

tuesdays

Lots of people in this world have monday blues but we (i am anshu) have tuesday blues. Every tuesday we have this meeting where we have to present all our week's work to our guide...today i want to present my scheduling algorithm .. i hope I get a patient listening to it without it being dispensed off ..normally my guide does give a patient hearing but i really dont know about trying something way out like hypergraphs which never saw light of the day :)
the semester is near closing and we really need to actually pull up our socks.. my problem is towards the end of it all i am getting ideas about scheduling etc and that wud require substantial efforts to code as well. But I guess its okay ..after having a prototype up there I know what all changes i need to make...and things would be fast enough...
sometimes i feel this strong urge to be able to write and publish a paper but well i guess it wouldn't work out during this MTech atleast ....

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asim had interview with sybase folks ..the guy seemed pretty impressed by him..lets see what post and sal he is offered ... i hope something good works out for him...

and the results are out ...

So Yahoo! took everyone except me. Well so much for the big mouth and attitude. Anyway its good. It would have hurt to leave MS for a company residing in some remote floor of a remote building and sending chunnu-munnu and pappus to interview MTechs. They wrk in Perl extensively and I hate scripting languages...We did differ on the account that I value experience a lot and they dont value that much. Might have created conflict with the ideologies.
As Asim had said , kyun jaa rahee hai confused hogi .. so I guess no confusion and as I had enlisted the things in the prev blog, it did teach me a lot. One of my difficult experiences - being judged by people I wouldn't respect myself! Hope this experience will be helpful for me.

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I am finally reading some papers for my thesis work .. gives me a high to read papers and formulate solutions for my scheduling problem... there is so much to read on a problem once you start exploring it... its good actually ..i want ot read papers right onw to develop prespective nad not to understand any formula they have in mind ...
just had a thought that my load sensors in thesis are actually like a heart beat protocol - so much commonality in the basic mechanisms across the world.... i love that !

gifts

bought a saree for my mom of 1350 - colored chiken work - kanpur specialty..
wanted to buy a office going bag for my dad...had that in my mind ofr a long ..almost since he had first visited me and had seen that bag but had refused to buy it coz it was expensive (some 3k)..
wondered how many stuff he had bought for me withput thinking about money at all ...

i guess that is something that i have inherited from my parents ... i really get kanjoos while buying something for myself but care a damn about money when i want to buy something for people i love (yes you are one of them baby)

anyways i fee bad that i have never given anything great to my dad ...will buy him a car once (in less than 5 years).. that's my promise...he cannot dream beyond a maruti ..wil lbuy him something he cannot even remotely think of possessing ..its not abt the money but even if he is plasantly surprised for a second ..it wil lbe wrth it ..i am sure next moment onwards he will go like - kyun beta kya zaroorat hai ..well and my usual answer ..zaroorat nahee papa shauk hai !

another thing learned at yahoo!

I also learned to throw lots of attitude ... .sail thru smilingly at my ignorance and shamelessly ask them for food when they are the least interested in treating us :)

oooh aay

That's exactly how I would describe my yahoo campus interviews. This is my fourth in a row...first was good ol' sybase then the painful trilogy (Am gonna takeover that company for rejecting me ..on second thoughts i wud spare them for sparing me) and then our MS. MS was a taxing interview but never did I get a feeling that I cud have performed better..
ofcourse yaho owas different ..i always got the feeling that i cud have done better if those three chunnu-munnus hadnt come or if that faux accent guy had offered me to eat at 1.45 pm or that HR lady cud give me some reason to respect her (come on with statements like " at yahoo we only hire the best!" who doesnt get pissed really)....

well few good things did emerge out of the exercise:
- Going to city became cool.. they were in some place called landmark (Allegedly a 5 star hotel) far off from campus.. three trips in the tempo (our "dhukker" <-- nagpur's nomenclature) wil lmake it easier for me to go next time.
- they asked me certain questions on my thesis that gave me good insight on how to proceed with the problem..everytime i feel i haave done a lot in it ..god sends somebody to make me realize that i have done nothing in it :))
- taught me a lesson ..when you think a question is too easy its a catch - you havent heard the corrct question.
Anyways hate to start the blog with a post mortem of not so fun event but i guess nothing except this could have provoked me enough to start writing it finally.